Dug In With God

Never give up; you never know until you try.

My last post was nearly 3 months ago, when I was hanging by a thread emotionally.  2012 ended on a decidedly uncertain note, and 2013 began with several crises in rapid succession--BOOM!  BOOM!!  BOOM!!!  I could handle 1, 2, even 3 issues, depending on the gravity of the situations, but I was hit with several major things practically at once.  In the consoling words of a dear colleague, I was at rock-bottom, with nowhere to go but up.  She assured me that God would lift me from the muck. 

While I've been dug in, hunkering in this bunker with God, I've felt confused, scared, angry, hopeless, hopeful, abso-freakin-lutely nuts . . .  I've also held onto faith that God has a reason for everything and a plan for my good.  I knew He would lift me in His timing; I was just wondering when that timing would occur. 

In ways, He has lifted me, though I'm still mired in something.  The initial barrage of issues has been resolved, so I'm so relieved that "relief" isn't even the right word.  There are still 2 issues still stubbornly refusing to be resolved, though, so I'm still plowing my way through.  I've dug in with God, too stubborn to give up. 

When I started blogging, I had 1 thing in mind: I hoped that by using my gallows humor, willingness to openly share my (like everyone's in this fallen world) screwed-up life and struggles, and my creative (sometimes offbeat) descriptives, that someone might stumble onto my blog and recognize herself and feel more hopeful about her situation.  I wanted to take lemons and make lemonade, if you will.  The experience helped me, and I hope it helped someone else, too.  I've missed it, but I've been too busy unscrewing my life to keep up with blogging. 

I hope I haven't lost everyone out there in my absence; I have no idea how many people ever paid any attention.  I do know God has paid attention, as He always will.  My words today are what they always were: I know God can.  Just dig in with Him and let Him do it His way, in His time.